Musings

Words of Power

Just recently, someone called me a ‘denier’. I suddenly found myself thinking about the things we call people – the words that we use and how we use them. It struck me that these are words of power. Words like ‘sexist’, ‘racist’, denier’ and so on. They carry a weight and a magical intent that has been placed their by the intent of the many times those words have been used. The are in a way a sort of egregore ( an occult concept representing a “thoughtform” or “collective group mind”, an autonomous psychic entity made up of, and influencing, the thoughts of a group of people.) in a word. Let me return to the word ‘denier’ as in climate change denier. When someone uses this expression against you it

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Responsibility

Recently, I wrote a song called Risky Business. actually, I’ve written a lot of songs but this one is one of may favorites. You can listen to it below… I’ve had a number of reactions to the lyrics however. I say that “you must blame yourself” in the song – which is about life in general. A couple of people queried this line and I thought I would respond. What this song is about is accepting personal responsibility. That’s a pretty unpopular idea these days as everyone more or less blames everything and everyone for their problems and rarely simply accepts that their life is their own responsibility. In my little book on creating reality, I said… As an esotericist, I have come to the conclusion that I am responsible

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The Dilemma of Fatherhood

How to explain to a child That I am imperfect? How to cover an inadvertent lie? How to be strong when I feel so weak? How to be a man who does what he speaks? The dilemma of Fatherhood The dilemma of life How to describe evil And otherwise good? How to be fair and just How to to explain the passion of lust? The dilemma of fatherhood The dilemma of life How to not pass on my hang ups My hurts, my fears and my pain How to keep her canvas whole Help her explore and find her way How not to criticise How to be her guide That stands by her side?

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Sorry – Not Me.

There is a horrible moment in a relationship where you see that your partner doesn’t know who you are. Thinking the way I think, I see this as a sort of projection of sorts from them onto you that they cannot see past. Breaking that down has proven to be impossible and it has caused damage in many instances. They simply see what the see and not the reality. Talking with others about relationships this last few weeks suggests to me that this is a human condition. Let me give you a couple of examples. For my last partner, I lived in cyberworld, ignoring her and chasing other women. It didn’t matter what I said, or did, this is what she believed. In fact, she still believes it. From my

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Who Am I?

Good question. Funny thing is that I have spent years trying to figure this out. I have met different parts of my psyche in meditation and for a while, I thought I knew who I was – warts and all – or probably better put as Mr. Angry and the others. But, you know, that isn’t who I am. Nope. It’s who I thought I was. Actually, I now know I haven’t got a clue who I am. When you live with someone – a wife or a partner – for 30 odd years, you become someone else. Then when suddenly, after all that time with a special someone in your life (or a special two someones over that 30 odd years), you find your self single. Then, you look

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A Soccer Summer

From a football perspective, I don’t much like summer. It’s difficult to resist googling ‘Hull City News’ but every time I do I wonder why. If there is a media that loves ‘false news’ it sure is the sports media and so all summer long you get to read about who is buying all of your best players and who might be coming to replace them and frankly, most of the time, it is pure garbage. However, I can never quite resist reading the lurid headlines anyway and always find myself somewhat disappointed to find out who we are losing….. Harry Maquire was a blow but who can blame the lad… 80k a week! It’s obscene. The there is pre-season. I’m also a bit of a fool there too following

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The Knight’s Pub

I was interviewed by The Knight’s Pub this last weekend and you can hear that interview at all of these places….   The Knight’s Pub Podomatic Spreaker Soundcloud Youtube iTunes I really enjoyed it and want to thanks host Elliot for having me on….

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Expertise is the New Arrogance

The other week, I was told I was arrogant in a social media forum. The other person then cut me off and cut all ties altogether. I looked up arrogant and arrogance to see if it were true, that I am arrogant. One definition that I found was this – an attitude of superiority manifested in an overbearing manner or in presumptuous claims or assumptions.  Now, I am pretty sure I don’t feel superior to anybody. Quite the reverse in fact. I think I am a bloody mess of emotions, thoughts, and reactions like most of the rest of humanity and that occasionally, when I remember, I am trying to figure all of this out. On the other hand, I am increasingly concerned by what I see in the world

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‘Uncle’ Jack

I learned in the last few minutes of the passing away of Uncle Jack. He had, as we say, a good innings and in the end, I think he faded away as a result of old age. He wasn’t my Uncle at all but that is what I called him. He was my Dad’s best friend and they had known each other since childhood. I’m sure Dad will be pleased to have welcomed him to the other side… Jack was a constant figure in my childhood. We vacationed with him and his family, went weekend camp meets with them and much more. My Dad had no family to speak of and so Jack, his best friend, truly played the role of Uncle to me and my brothers. He was a

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Fake News and The Fight For Reality

When I wrote The Last Observer, I never imagined that a real fight for reality would actually happen. However, inundated with information, we are subject to all sorts of reality creating content – some of it fake and much of it it twisted. Be aware that there is a battle going on for your mind and this battle isn’t what it seems. You see your mind is a powerful reality creating device and if someone can hijack your mind and get it working in a certain way, they can use you to create the reality that they want. The media and politicians, religious zealots, and others have always used this technique but today, the tools to do so are easy to obtain. We tend to surround ourselves with reality reinforcing

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