poetry

Murder of Self

Humanity Insanity The walls grow Between us And I just sit and cry And ask why? Humanity Depravity Why do we constantly Reach the lowest common denominator How do we not see? The sheer fragility The depths of our soul The realizations That would make us whole? Corruption Destruction That seems to be us Always seeking The next thing to hate That is our eternal state No wonder we were cast out It was a total rout We fell and are still falling And I am in mourning Seeing the bigger picture As opposed to the blister That I have the urge to scratch There can be no redemption Until we finally see That you, you are me And I am you

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Hell Burns Brightly

There comes a point When you just give up Nothing I can really do There comes a point When it’s understood This world is just fucked up How people think is beyond me Circling an endless cycle Of hate, war and pain No collective memory Imbecile telemetry Pushed and jostled around Losing ground The puppeteer grins A maniacal smile And all the while They sleep oblivious The ripples shimmer The mind gets dimmer Packed with irrelevant filth No one thinks anymore Thought patterns Deeply ingrained Like a wound inflamed I can’t believe That you can’t see How easily How sleazily You are manipulated Catipulated Into chaos The pit Hell burns brightly In heaven Today

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Anxiety Attack

Somewhere Another side of me Shakes in fear Shuns the world And company Sometimes This other side Tries to take control Shake, rattle and roll Beating like a drum Heart feels wired Cold, clammy hands Insides all mangled My thoughts tangled A panic attack Drop a tiny pill The world becomes still Who is he? This stalker This shadow part of me? Where did he come from What does he want? Anxious to know Anxiety show And How could this happen to me?

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Do you think that would sell?

So who shouts the loudest? Am I getting through? Satisfying you Seeking an audience So very hard Need to sell my soul Or get a little luck Nip and tuck My way to fame I have ambition And I’d sell for cheap Until contrition Set in and spoiled it Tweet and turn Leave a mark In indelible ink Or a coffee stain By the kitchen sink Listen, I got stuff to tell Ghosty ghoulies Scary as hell Do you think that would sell?

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April Fool

It’s April 1st Can March be finished already? Where did it go? Does anyone know? So, it’s spring again Mr. Weather doesn’t know Wether to rain or shine Mother nature is also confused Not knowing quite what to do Someone up there must have had a few But so much to look forward to Summer is coming The clock is running Climbing to the Year’s noon Meanwhile Coat or no coat? Shall I need a brolly? Better not to be wet and sorry April showers Pretty flowers Allergies playing up As Nature releases Yellow dust spread Like marmalade on bread crust Mother Nature’s lust New life arriving So cool You old April Fool!        

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So Many questions….

Got to love the laughter Got to give it soul No way that should matter After all, it’s just another hole Falling in and falling out This is the year of doubt I’m not sure what’s up Not sure what’s in or out I’m spinning away slowly Lazily heading south Words are forming But never leave my mouth The journey continues But does it have a purpose Does it have a reason or why? Does it end when I die? Did anything truly matter? A burst of energy Scattered light too bright A burning forgotten moment Coming just to be going Here just to be gone Now I am longing To know To learn What was it all about?  

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Miracles Do Happen

Learning Growing Building Gaining strength Waiting Being Talking Seeing hope Miracles do happen Every spring, new life appears And springtime may be here At the beginning of winter A touch of love A hope held deeply A dream explained Patience the virtue and here I am Hoping Feeling Something new growing Healing Seeing That spring has sprung anew Miracles do happen Oh yes they do Through you I am living again Laughing in the rain Soaking up the Sun Again having fun Hoping that spark of joy Will burst into flame

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Wounded

I am so wounded So hurt, I am not living I am so wounded So hurt, I cannot see What it might be like to be free I gave everything – all of me Built a castle in the air It seems so fucking unfair The castle has dissolved And taken with it Everything I believed in My smile has been wiped Like an old unwanted tape My happiness kicked into touch It all meant so much I am not living, but surviving So lonely, so stuck in the past A fairytale of memories That I hoped would last Lost, cast adrift, cut to the bone How did I end up so alone? I lived for you, not me Rejected, I finally see How I lost myself in an ‘us’

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Endings and Beginnings

I was willing to work I was willing to be someone else I was willing to be whatever you needed me to be And yet You threw it away I would have given you anything I would have turned a blind eye I would have done whatever it took you see I woke up that morning In a pure funk Understood I had lost myself You broke my heart Took me so completely apart Now I’m picking up my pieces And puzzling over where they belong Thats why I am writing this bloody song Directionless Even emotionless Until it overwhelms Rolls over me like the rushing waters Crushing, washing and flipping me The panic starts The anxiety rises You are always full of surprises Endings are beginnings So they say

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Death On The Beach

As of today my new poetry collection is out on Kindle. It’s called Death on the Beach and features a photograph of me taking a photograph of Anna Maria Island beach in Florida on the cover. The photo was taken by Gabriela…  

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