Mood

Addicted

For the last several weeks, I have been having very vivid – even lucid dreams. I’m not quite sure why, but perhaps its related to a course that I am doing with The Silent Eye school. Anyway, recently, I awoke with a song in my head. I had dreamt the song and I was addicted to it. I found myself singing it in the shower and during the day. I had to get this song out! It took me many hours of work and experimentation, but I got very close to the song in my dream and called it “Addicted”. It is really quite a different type of song for me being synth-based and has more of a techno beat (and I HATE techno trust me). I admit, it’s not

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How To Look At The World

I met Walter several years ago in Brno. He seemed a character and had good stories to tell. Unfortunately, he moved to Prague and from there back to the US. We kept in touch though via Facebook. Then, a few weeks ago I noticed him posting about returning to Brno so I reached out and we agreed to meet. Since then, we have shared a few evenings telling stories and laughing a lot. But Walter is no ordinary person. He sees life in a different way to many and his way of looking at the world is through the lens of a camera. He is also an artist framing what he sees within his lens. His vision captures the humanity of his subjects and casts them mostly in a way

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The Other Me

Got this person in my head I used to think he was me Now I see him as my enemy He tells me I’m no good Tells me, I’m a failure The voice is mine But these are not my words Sometimes, he changes tune Tells me I’m the shit The bees knees But I don’t believe him Not one bit Then sometimes He likes to make me doubt Lose my trust In the stream of life Fills my head with angst And bitter strife But, I found him out! The voice is a liar The voice isn’t me He’s a bloody whiner Chattering incessantly I’m not listening anymore Not reacting to his Endless narrative It’s my life Not his I don’t know who it is This voice that sounds

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Musical Declaration of Freedom

It’s been sometime coming. But, finally, I declare myself FREE. In the words of this latest song… It’s my life, It’s my life, It’s my life and I’m going to live it! In recent weeks, many things have changed and some very important people have entered my life. The Universe has been kicking my ass! So, here is my anthem – take a listen… Plainly, this moment was coming for as I wrote End of the World – It came to me in silence Came as if in a dream It was plain to see Nothing I could do That’s when I saw you Eyes met across the room Now I’m with you The end of things is coming It’s all a matter of time It’s plain to see Nothing

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Just Be

I once thought I knew where this was going But that was the old controlling me Now I know, I found a treasure Someone different Who makes me feel like me I’m just gonna let go now And see Where this take us I’m going to go with the flow To live in the moment And just be

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Fire

There’s a fire in my soul Fire in my … Fire Burn, Burn, Burn Fire in my belly Fire in my speech Burning Burn, Burn, Burn There’s a smoulder inside my body A flame within my soul Burning Rising on a wave of passion Fire flames my desire For you Burn, Burn, Burn The fire is inside of me The fire is inside of you We flame Flame

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Saying No

Many of the people that I am attracted to are people who know how to say No. You see, I don’t. My biggest issue in life is wanting to be loved. Wanting to be wanted. I don’t know where this came from – certainly not my childhood as I was both loved and wanted. I was, it seems, simply born this way. I am therefore, a giver. I give and I give and I give. I avoid conflict whenever possible and I keep on giving and saying yes until I am simply taken for granted and abused. Someone in my past once told me that I don’t love myself. I’m not sure about that but certainly, I have a deep seated sense of insecurity. The funny thing is however, that

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Facists

Facists was the last song written for The Early Years. The song started with the introduction – picking out notes from a chord and adding in a harmony – and the main riff developed out of that. I had in other songs discovered that adding a sort of lead guitar riff in background added color to a song and I continued that theme with this song. I also played with a changed tempo during the song. The lyrics and topic came last and I chose to sing it in a lower – almost speaking voice with multiple overlays – some spoken to give it depth…   It’s up in the air It’s hanging around Nothing we can do Nothing at all   The world’s gone crazy The world’s gone mad

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Punk Politics

I remember very well the adrenalin rush I felt on hearing God Save the Queen by the Pistols. I also recall being disgusted by their behavior when interviewed on TV and yet, I was also enthralled and fascinated. The music establishment was crumbling under the assault by The Clash, Sex Pistols, and many more like them. It was shocking fashion, shocking talk and shocking and outrageous behavior. A kick in the face to all the nice people with their nice cosy lives and boring bale existences…. It was fun while it lasted. Eventually, the status quo prevailed. Punk became the new romantics, The Police and well, mainstream again. Looking back, it was a rush, exciting, but just a back alley. We grew up. We became part of the system we

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Waiting For Something To Happen

Do you ever get a feeling of anticipation – as if something good is going to happen in your life? I do. Right now, I have this feeling that something new and exciting will happen – manifest – in my life. Maybe it is just wishful thinking but usually, when I get this feeling…… thumbs up! Let’s see? I will let you know.

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