Archive for August, 2017

Fire

There’s a fire in my soul Fire in my … Fire Burn, Burn, Burn Fire in my belly Fire in my speech Burning Burn, Burn, Burn There’s a smoulder inside my body A flame within my soul Burning Rising on a wave of passion Fire flames my desire For you Burn, Burn, Burn The fire is inside of me The fire is inside of you We flame Flame likeheartlaughterwowsadangry0

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The Kiss

My lips seek yours The moist touch of playfulness The taste of your scent The electricity of the touch A spiral into the decadence Of pure momentary enjoyment You draw me in and our noses brush I’m falling, falling I’m longing for your touch I long for it so much The kiss Is bliss Heavenly likeheartlaughterwowsadangry0

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Wasted Energy

I have written poems and blogs about this and yet, sometimes you have to be reminded. There is a flow to life – some call it fate, perhaps others karma – it takes you were you need to go, to the people you must meet and to the lessons you must learn. If we just went with the flow all would be well. Its the children’s rhyme that always reminds me of this – Row, row, row your boat Gently down the stream, Merrily merrily, merrily, merrily Life is but a dream The problem is that sometimes we get stuck on a rock or we see something that makes us want to row against the stream. So we beat like mad. We lose sight of where life is taking us.

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Hello World!

I just woke up from a bad dream. Did I really cut myself out of my own life for all those years? Yes, I did. For the love of someone else, I turned my back on what I was and spent my time giving what I thought she wanted and denying who I was. Well no more. The last 10-years has been all about someone else. A person who pulled me in to push me away. Over and over. Who criticized the core of my being and shamed me into being someone I am not and never will be. Quite honestly, I can’t believe this happened at all. What was I thinking? Hello World…… Hello Gary. I’m glad you are back. Forgive me. I was lost. But Im finding my

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Touch Me

I am an island of emotion A ship wrecked at sea I am sliding through water Reflecting an eternal me I yearn for your touch The feeling of your skin The sense that I am not alone Feel the energy within Your hands in my hands A fountain of humanity Your glowing inner warmth Heals my soul, restores sanity Touch me Don’t be afraid Touch me Let your warmth cascade Into my soul And plumb the depths Of humanity Explore its wonderful healing effects Touch me Touch my body Touch my soul and I’ll touch yours         likeheartlaughterwowsadangry0

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Moving On

There are moments in life in which fate acts. That can be the only explanation. Just like the Tower tarot, your world is shaken and the foundations tested and even as the chaos seems to grow and overtake everything, the Sun will shine on a new dawn and the wheel of life keeps turning. For the last few months, I have taken shelter, as the tower shook and then crumbled on its unstable foundations. I found myself powerless to act. I was afraid. Afraid of losing a sense of stability and of something that I thought I valued. Everywhere I went, everyone I met, and even the signs in the sky kept telling me the same message that I didn’t want to hear. Like the monkeys, I blocked my ears

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Sorry – Not Me.

There is a horrible moment in a relationship where you see that your partner doesn’t know who you are. Thinking the way I think, I see this as a sort of projection of sorts from them onto you that they cannot see past. Breaking that down has proven to be impossible and it has caused damage in many instances. They simply see what the see and not the reality. Talking with others about relationships this last few weeks suggests to me that this is a human condition. Let me give you a couple of examples. For my last partner, I lived in cyberworld, ignoring her and chasing other women. It didn’t matter what I said, or did, this is what she believed. In fact, she still believes it. From my

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Resurrection

The darkness crept in like a thief in the night It came from an unexpected source It clouded my judgement It froze the blood in my veins Its hard to see in the dark All you can do is try to feel the pain   Pushing, pushing darkness away The source of my pain The lady who lit me up Stole my light bit by bit The fire she started was never for me But only for her   The dawn is breaking over my heart And the embers of love still remain There to be fueled and burst aflame But not by her, not ever again The darkness and all that pain Is passing as I live again.         likeheartlaughterwowsadangry0

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The Realization

Realizations are funny things. When it finally happens it shifts your axis. It moves your world. They are born oftentimes by necessity out of pain. And the moment they happen, the pain is replaced with incredulity. How did I not see this before? I guess there truly is a structure to the human learning process – a methodology. My pain and anguish has not totally gone. It will not go quietly nor abruptly for the process of growing, learning, and maturing is not something that occurs in an instant. But there is a tipping point at which the realization takes seed in fertile soil and, nourished by the tears of agony, begins to grow. The seed germinates and takes root in our dark night of the soul and it reaches

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Looking for Love in A Foreign City

Now I am single again, my attention has already turned to trying to get out there and about. In truth, I’m not ready. I need to heal first. But, love won’t come looking for me sitting alone in my apartment watching Californication and wondering why I can’t act a bit more like David Duchovny’s character. So you sign up for a dating site or two and you set off for any party, get together, or meeting you can find. These dating sites are a crock though. I mean how do you decide if you like a person or not based on their best polished and photoshopped picture? I did get a bit of an ego trip though signing up for one. After just a day my profile was locked so

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