The Self Doubts of the Self Employed

Sometimes, despite my best intentions, I get down in the dumps…. I think today I am shall we say, browned off. Trying to build a small business isn’t easy and I think the realization of the downside of building a business is now beginning to sink in. Firstly, people don’t have time or money and then when you actually do get a consulting gig or a client, they take simply ages to pay your invoice. Plus, right now is slap bang in the middle of the holiday season too (and the fact I should actually be on a beach today doesn’t actually help either).


So I am sat at my PC thinking. Who can I talk to? Who might buy what we are offering? Sending out emails and receiving mostly negative replies. Not much fun really.

At times like this in the past I have cheated a bit. Yes, I have used a little bit of magic and maybe I need to do that again. No – no sacrifices or blood letting or anything sinister like that, just a bit of imaginative meditation. Imagining being and feeling successful. Seeing a healthy bank balance and knowing our needs are taken care of. It does seem to work actually!

You start to sweat actually thinking what happens if the money doesn’t come in or if no customers appear. What will happen? After all, there is no regular job to fall back on and, even if I started looking now, it could be weeks or even months before I found one. I am therefore committed. Fully committed to being a success. It will just have to pay off. Time to put away the self doubts and get focused again…..


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